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Misanthropist. Osteophiliac. Feminist. Metal. Sexual orientation is nothing at all. No religion, no problems. They call me Jezebel.

I think it’s safe to assume at this point that people naturally do not like me. Do not ask me the reason because I simply do not know.

Maybe it’s because I’m fat and unattractive? People do not like to associate themselves with people who aren’t pleasing to the eye? Though I’ve seen plenty of people who are big that have tons of friends.

Maybe it’s because of my mental illnesses or my social anxiety? Then again I have known people who were much worse off than I and they seem to have no trouble with attracting people to them, whether it be online or in person.

People can no longer say that I have to be the one to initiate the conversation with a stranger because I do. I may not be able to go up to a person and strike up a conversation but I surely can say hello to people on this website. I have done so many times and nine out of ten times they simply do not answer or very rarely they do but never reply back when I attempt to continue the conversation. Keep in mind that these are people who reblog posts such as, “Reblog if you’re willing to talk to any of your followers” or “Reblog if you will try to become friends with anyone that messages you”.

Surely there has to be something wrong with me if I can not even make one online friend on a website where almost every single person wants to speak and meet with everyone else. So I ask you, what do you think is wrong with me? What do you think is the reason why no one on this god forsaken planet wants to be my friend?

I absolutely despise it when people around me call me lazy or a slob because it’s hard for me to do things or I refuse to do the things they ask for. Excuse me, I don’t have time to deal with petty little shit because at the moment all I can think about is slitting my wrist or vomiting the food I just ate.